I was watching a music video the other day: Roxy Music - More than this. It was featured in the film Lost in translation (2003) - co starring a young Scarlett Johansson. I was thinking WOW she's something and what would I have given? Then it came to me that I had "known" girls as gorgeous as miss Johansson and even more so. I remember when I was about 13/14 and those hormones were starting to kick in, I wondered if I would ever have the chance to sleep with a girl (hey, I had no reasoning skills at that point - obviously). I had a buddy at school (and beyond) who had a certain look and style - and all those girls at school were over him like a rash - and was I ever jealous? I have to say he brought me out of my shell as I was quite shy back then. I thank him for that - looking back. I realize now, that a lot of what he had, that girls like is - Confidence. I hung out with him through those early teenage years and was always in his shadow as far as girls were concerned. When I turned 16 he found a steady girlfriend so that took him out of the picture. I remember that summer I grew my hair out which was completely blonde at the time. I was tanned from working on the farm and POW. It wasn't that I had discovered girls but that THEY had discovered me. They formed a line (sometimes not so orderly) and that summer was one of the happiest times of my life. It was about that time that I became a loner. I didn't want to hang around with other boys in that regard because they only got in the way as far as chasing girls was concerned. Yeah I had male friends but never mixed with them when girls were the object in point. My old buddy lost his mojo and ended up marrying some fat chick. She was a great girl but, well, fat. I often think of my old friend. We had some good times together. I hope he's happy.
So now, here in Ireland we are "locked down". Essential journeys only and an hours exercise a day (outdoors) etc, etc. Of course it's a farce, as it's practically unpoliceable. It's only for two weeks though, riiight! This is the new dystopian society that we used to read about by the likes of Orwell and Huxley etc . It's here now. I was reading about this Italian Governor of Campania called Vincenzo de Luca who was advocating the use of flamethrowers (for fuck sake) on dissenters to the policy of being imprisoned in their homes. For fuck sake. I love these petty psychopathic tyrants who at times like these, come out of the woodwork with their wet dreams of murdering folks. These are early days and Vincenzo and his ilk may well get their way in the not to distant future. From what I'm reading its going to "kick off " in the U.S.A. in the not too distant future, as martial law is imposed. The slow but increasing roll out of the national guard and military is gathering pace and the American constitution will soon be a mist in the rear view mirror. Pretty soon we will all be living in Nazi Germany. At the moment most people cannot see this coming. Give it 6 months - 1 year though, when the gloves of these monsters really come off - then reality is gonna punch a lot of people in the face, real hard. I know this might sound mad, but at this point the only hope is those 100 million gun owners in the U.S.A. If they dont front up when "they" come for those guns then a dark age is going to descend on this world. I'm not kidding. I can only think our time now is equivalant to Russia in 1917 or Germany in 1933 or ( god help us ) Cambodia circa 1975. Enough already Jeremy, with your mad Cassandra like doom and gloom prophesies.
I'm into my 6th can of cider and tomorrow I may wake up and think what the fuck was I "talking" about last night in that email.. but then, the next time I am half drunk, I am sure, it will be the same. I wish I had one them Mossberg 500 a 12 gauge pump actions. I am getting old and not afraid of death. I am sure that in a not too distant future I will meet the likes of Vincenzo de Luca and I would like to invite him to come on a "journey" with me, although hopefully we would part company soon after, heading in different directions. I don't know if I passed any tests in this world but I really dont want to come back here. Please God. Actually Scarlett Johansson is not only very pretty but she does seem to have some unquantifiable something or other thing about her. I guess that's why she's a movie star and those other girls aren't. Blessing or a curse (to be a movie star) its certainly better than working in a soap factory. Tomorrow is another day, Thank God that I have no fear.